dreams...

I dream every single night, and I always remember them. Maybe not to their full extent, but recently it's been weird. Every other night I dream about my mom and step-dad, and then every other night I dream about my dad and step-mom, meanwhile my siblings are intermixed between dreams. I have been living away from home since 2004 and I still dream about my parents? Weird. And the dreams aren't good dreams.

2 nights ago I dreamt that I was in church with my mom and she took me into a room where we could be alone. She told me she had cancer and would die within a year. I got really upset, but that wasn't all she told me. She said she was going to go on a mission for 2 years. I told her there was no way she was leaving on a mission, because I needed to be with her until she died. She said a mission would prolong her life, and it was what she was going to do. I was really upset, but church let out and we all got in the car. My parents in one car, and my sisters and I in another. While in the car, I realized that half of my front tooth was gone. Then I realized that my bottom tooth was also chipped. As I was figuring this out I started feeling in my mouth for my teeth, panicking, and suddenly, the entire right lower half of my jaw came out into my hands! It was SO creepy. I woke up instantly after I pulled it out and saw it in my hands.

What does that MEAN? I looked it up at dreammoods.com, here's the article on what a dream about teeth falling out means. I decided not to paste the whole thing.

http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/teethdreams.pl?method=exact&header=dreamid&search=teethintro

Last night I had another dream. This time it was about my father. He told me this horrible secret (I'd rather not get into it) about something that had happened in the past. It was the most horrible secret you could possibly imagine anyone telling you. And in my dream, I felt so helpless, sad, and angry. It was like my father, who is this figure of love, acceptance, and comfort to me, turned into a monster in my dream. Of course in real life this secret it absolutely not true... but it was an aweful night of bad dreams for me. I'm not sure why I keep having off dreams, but I am trying to figure out why I'm having them in the first place.

Perhaps the last 2 nights I went to bed on an empty stomach and that's cause enough? Or maybe there's something in my life that I'm unconsciously not dealing with. Or maybe it was that STUPID Watchmen movie we saw last night. STUPIDEST movie ever. My advice, don't go see it... if you really want to go see it, just prepare yourself for pornographic images and a story line that leaves you depressed and relieved that it's not your life. I should've walked out.